That’s what it felt like last night at training, I felt like I had nothing in the tank at all and it was disconcerting. The warm-up/physical to start the class was quite a tiring one, there’s no mistaking that, but afterwards I found my lower ribs around my back were aching, I can only assume it’s because I was breathing so hard. There was a couple of times where I thought ‘I feel like crap, I’m going to have to stop’, but I made myself carry on yet again, and happily made it through.
What got to me though was the fact that it felt like my fitness had almost taken a step backwards, I was gasping and thankful we didn’t have kicking drills which would probably have finished me off. I learned last week that I have my 4th Gup grading in December, and a combination of that and last night’s shock have given me a big kick up the arse to do some serious work now. I’ve been slack when it comes to eating properly lately, and that’s the first thing to be rectified. I notice a marked difference in my energy levels if I don’t eat well, but still ignore it sometimes. Not a good idea when you’re trying to lose weight at the same time!
As I said before my last grading, I want to give a good account of myself this time around, I don’t want there to be any excuses, no failing at something because I simply don’t have the energy. I don’t mind being put through my own personal miniature hell at the start with the physical, but not managing something I know full well I can do is unacceptable now.
Bit of a serious and down post that one I know, It doesn’t happen often and I like seeing it down in words, it’s a good reminder 🙂
Plus my new venture means that my mind is going to be even more martial arts focused than ever, it’d be hypocritical of me to slack off. More about that another time though.